Anxiety...

There are four of us living in 900 square feet. Saying things are difficult is an understatement. The kids don't have as much room to play, we have on closet, Mark and I use the living room as our bedroom and the dining room is the living room. The room that we are using for the living room doesn't have any windows. That stinks because this house is so dark and with the limited windows, we haven't been able to really enjoy looking at the snow we've had. Yes, we could go out and play in it, but I love to watch it snow.

We are also missing so many things since we have so much stuff in storage. I miss my workouts, doing my scrap booking of Ryan's school work having my own space. It's just been a challenge.

Despite all of the things mentioned above, my anxiety is down drastically. Once we got rid of the former contractor my stress level decreased like you would not believe. I recently realized, too, exactly how much anxiety our old neighborhood was causing me. Now, don't get me wrong. I loved living next to Dave and De. They were great neighbors. Everyone else on the block, with the exception of a couple of families were so nice too. I just had an incredible amount of stress and anxiety while there. I never felt like the house was mine. I never felt like my yard was mine. I felt like I was always being watched and talked about. I hated it. I prayed for rain and bad weather so that people wouldn't be outside. Thank goodness we only lived there two years. That was a big reason for us selling the house and moving though. I just couldn't live in fear and worry anymore.

Never in a million years did I think living in a subdivision like that would cause me so much stress. Of course, now I'm terrified of living in a subdivision again...good thing we are moving to the country on two acres.